It's been really hard for me lately to think of the bright side of things. I've been so stressed with things. Between house payments, Contractions with this pregnancy, work, and TONS of other things on my irrational pregnant mind, i can barely get any sleep at night. I also freak myself out thinking that this pregnancy will end with an awful labor experience like last time. And not only that, our new Dr only delivers at 1 hospital. And that hospital happens to be an hour away. I freak out that we wont make it.
Well last night, Max and i were just sitting and talking about things we r a little worried about. Then we realized, we r just thinking of things that MIGHT go wrong or things that we just don't have any control over. Money's tight, yes, but we are making it. There are SO many things we have to be thankful for. As far as house payments, we HAVE a house. Not only that, its an amazing house. And as far as the pregnancy goes, in February, we are gonna have another sweet little girl to add to our family :) Sure there are tons of things that can go wrong with the pregnancy and the labor but, those are out of my control. I just think of my friends who have had a hard time getting pregnant or the friends of mine who have lost their babies. It breaks my heart to think of those situations. So it makes me think 'what really am i worried about?' That i might go through some pain to get this girl into the world? That is ridiculous. I admit, the pain i went through delivering Lydia was the most pain i've ever felt. But it was the most amazing experience of my entire life. So much so, that im doing it again lol
There's just so much to be greatful for that i cant just dwell on things that are overwhelming me. I have an awesome little family. A husband that cares for me more than anyone. i know he would do anything for me. He's been putting up with my morning sickness, aches, pains, emotional break downs, and times where im just so irrational haha i also have a little girl that amazes me everyday. She's so smart and its so fun to see the world thru her curious eyes :)
I'm going to be more positive and just enjoy the now instead of worrying about the unknown :) Bring on my favorite holidays!